That leads me to thoughts of Caroline, and just how old she has seemed lately and is really. She will be four soon. Four. She is a person with big feelings, opinions, funny things to say and dreams. It makes me wonder if I have done enough up to this point. Have I loved my first enough, have I told her how much she means to me, have a cultivated a giving and kind spirit inside of her, have I encouraged her, pushed her, and cuddled with her enough?
Our morning routine lately consists of Ben giving me a kiss goodbye on his way out the door to work as I try to catch a few more minutes of sleep. Caroline comes into my room and asks for breakfast and then lets me know that I can go back to sleep after I turn on a show for her if I want. This is so sweet and sad at the same time. She has been a provider lately, the one who understands, forgives, encourages and loves with her whole being, isn't that supposed to be my job?
This morning, Caroline came into my room and wanted snuggles. She climbed up in bed with me and we traded I love you's, said we loved each other to the moon and back and we just had a sweet moment her me and a kicking baby sister. She is so excited for what is to come in the next few months and I can't help but be excited for her, she will love being and having a sister.
Ben and I were just chuckling the other night about how Caroline isn't anything we expected her to be. We couldn't pin point what it was that we were expecting but she is not it, in the best way possible. Caroline is crazier, sillier, funnier, and more giving of her heart than I could have imagined. So with this pregnancy I haven't really sat and daydreamed about who our new little one will be because, Lord only knows. And that is for the best. Caroline is everything we needed in a first child and I know that our second will be everything we need too and will be the perfect fit, the missing piece. We cannot wait to meet her!
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| Good Morning my Big Girl! |
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| Snuggling up with Baby Sister |
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